I took a blogging and Twitter break for a month. I needed some time to think about things other than infertility and having babies. I needed it for my sanity. The break was helpful. I finally feel that I am truly okay and valuable without children. That may sound so basic to some of you. It's a big deal for me.
I spent most of my life working towards two goals- getting married and having children. Needless to say, infertility left me feeling lost and incomplete.
All this time I knew on an intellectual level that I was important even if I was never a mother but I didn't feel that way. During my break I finally started feeling that I am important and of value, and that having or not having kids will ever change that. Nothing will ever change the fact that I have value. I still have a long way to go in valuing myself as an individual, as just Rachel. But I'm getting there.
It's so hard to redefine our self-worth when all we think about is something we haven't been able to have but want so bad! I am so glad you realize your value! It will help in your decisions for how to move forward with your family. Not sure I've commented on your blog before, but I'm a recent follower and wanted you to know that I am reading, and I am here with you!
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