Thursday, June 16, 2016

An Answer? Now!?

I haven't updated my blog in forever, and I am sorry for that. I've been dealing with some neurological problems. I've had multiple MRI scans and an EEG and hopefully we will have some answers soon. One thing I have learned is that my pituitary gland is small for a person my age. 
According to the Mayo Clinic*, "In PCOS, complex changes occur in the hypothalamus, pituitary gland and ovaries, resulting in a hormone imbalance, which affects ovulation."
We may have discovered a reason I couldn't get pregnant. I will be seeing a doctor who can test my hormone levels and help me get any abnormalities straightened out.
While my husband and I are not planning on trying again for a child anytime soon (if ever), it would be nice to have a more concrete answer of why our treatments failed. It would also be nice to be given a choice. I'd like my husband and I to be able to fully make the decision to live childfree, or have the opportunity to change our minds in 5 years if we choose.
What I do ask from you right now is your thoughts, prayers, good vibes, whatever positive energy you can our way. Due to the neurological difficulties I've been experiencing have been hard on me. I'm not used to feeling "stupid" but I do right now. I have difficulty finding the words I want to use, holding my train of thought is difficult, my memory is bad. I even have trouble driving. It has been hard on both me and my husband. He is scared for me, obviously, and I'm a little scared too.
I hope you are all doing well!