Thursday, June 16, 2016

An Answer? Now!?

I haven't updated my blog in forever, and I am sorry for that. I've been dealing with some neurological problems. I've had multiple MRI scans and an EEG and hopefully we will have some answers soon. One thing I have learned is that my pituitary gland is small for a person my age. 
According to the Mayo Clinic*, "In PCOS, complex changes occur in the hypothalamus, pituitary gland and ovaries, resulting in a hormone imbalance, which affects ovulation."
We may have discovered a reason I couldn't get pregnant. I will be seeing a doctor who can test my hormone levels and help me get any abnormalities straightened out.
While my husband and I are not planning on trying again for a child anytime soon (if ever), it would be nice to have a more concrete answer of why our treatments failed. It would also be nice to be given a choice. I'd like my husband and I to be able to fully make the decision to live childfree, or have the opportunity to change our minds in 5 years if we choose.
What I do ask from you right now is your thoughts, prayers, good vibes, whatever positive energy you can our way. Due to the neurological difficulties I've been experiencing have been hard on me. I'm not used to feeling "stupid" but I do right now. I have difficulty finding the words I want to use, holding my train of thought is difficult, my memory is bad. I even have trouble driving. It has been hard on both me and my husband. He is scared for me, obviously, and I'm a little scared too.
I hope you are all doing well!


  1. Im sorry that on top of your fertility issues you're dealing with this as well. I'm new to actually facing my infertility and pretty much scouring the Internet for other people trying to see a happy childfree life rather than a pitied childless life. So far, people just throw out alternatives (surrogate! Do the IVF even though it's a 20% chance! Adopt!). I know they are well-meaning but I'm trying to wrap my head around my diagnosis (unicornuated uterus and PCOS with a genetic clotting factor as the cherry on top). I hope you've gotten some answers since writing this and your health is improving. Thank you for sharing your struggles.

  2. Best wishes to you and your husband. I've been through neurological testing (for seizures), and it can be a bit 'unnerving' - literally!

    Do you have PCOS? Just my anecdotal experience, but it seems it's one of the more common causes of infertility, at least for women under 40.

    It seems you've put a lot of thought into whether you want a child or to live childfree, so I'm sure you'll make the right choice whatever you decide. And don't let anybody tell you you're not 'childfree' if that's your ultimate choice (I'm not childfree, by the way).