Monday, May 21, 2012

On to IVF

I was really hoping that this month would give us a miracle and that we wouldn't have to move forward with the IVF plan. It didn't. It doesn't matter how many times I've gotten my hopes up only to be disappointed, it still hurts like hell every time it happens. I'm having a hard time focusing on anything today. I'm just so upset. It's so hard how some people just don't understand how hard this is for infertile couples. They say, "It's not the end of the world." To me, it kind of is. Every month a little more of my optimism dies and that part of my heart that was so hopeful about the future grows colder.

I've sent a new patient appointment request to the Reproductive Endocrinologist that we want to do IVF with. I hope to be seeing him in late June. I'm also hoping beyond all hope that we can maybe do an IVF cycle by September, but that all depends on finances. The idea of waiting until September sucks. That's what infertility is, "hurry up and wait."

9 comments:

  1. I'm sorry : (. I would get my hopes up every single month too. I still don't feel like it's "fair" that I had to do IVF, but so far it has worked and I hope you have similar success!

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    1. How many rounds of IVF did you have to do? I'm trying to find stories of people who it worked the first time for. We just can't afford multiple rounds.

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    2. IVF worked for us the first time, we were beyond lucky because we only had 2 embryos that made it to day 3 and we're expecting twins :)

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  2. Big, big hugs! I also hope you get your IVF asap!
    I know this kills a little part of you each month. I just hope that once you do get your baby that it starts to heal back up while you build your family and grow closer.

    I wish there was something I could do or say, but I know that everything I try will fall short. So I will say, I care for you and I love you and will do anything I can for you.

    Love,
    Sarah

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  3. I'm so sorry that this cycle wasn't the one. And I know how frustrating and scary transitioning to IVF is. Please be kind to yourself in the coming months. You are not on hold; you are preparing.

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  4. I'm so sorry this cycle didn't work for you. The waiting game with IF is so very hard! I hope these next few months bring you a lot of peace! =)

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  5. I founded a charity called Baby Quest Foundation. Have you checked out our online application for financial assistance? Let me know if you have any questions.

    Pamela
    www.babyquestfoundation.org
    bqfoundation@gmail.com

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  6. I just emailed you. Thank you so much for the information :-)

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  7. Glad you found the info. Please let me know if you have any questions.

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